one stop to heaven

))): times a million.

being pushed to the end and i have no idea what to do now, really.

in the meantime, i gotta have at least two proper meals a day!!! plus studying harder! ):

i’ve cried four days in a row

i’ve vomitted two days in a row.

fml.

the fine tune piano piece playing on itunes vs my messed up mind weighing heavily on me.

This is my favourite piano piece, I wanted to learn how to play it especially after my friend played it for me on my 18th birthday (: but i never had a piano. I have a keyboard but it just doesnt sound the same when you play it on a piano. The piece was beautiful, full of emotions which can obviously be felt thru your heart. I’d always listen to it when I feel really messed up and stressed. just trying to imagine myself playing it instead of simply listening to it. I love it.

sometimes i wish my boyfriend could be my best friend, be my motivation, be the worm in my brain.

(:

guess what.

imu.

goodbye.

I WANNA LAY HERE FOREVER AND STARE INTO THE SMILES OF OTHERS. DAMN.

fear and doubt, that’s all left in me.